|Kitchen Aid mixed up thoughts
||[Mar. 12th, 2010|12:53 pm]
its that coherency thing
I guess maybe the amazing amount of stress could explain the nice little blow up yesterday but I'm guessing it was just PMS irrationality. Or perhaps that is ignoring the obvious. :Shrug:
Oh well, couples should fight. Otherwise it would simply suggest we can't handle conflict and instead bottle it up. While that might describe V it certainly doesn't characterize me. Weirdly thou, we always end up fighting about nothing. Not money, moving, our families, friends, what we do any given day, chores, careers.. literally nothing big. Are we avoiding them or do we perfectly agree? Something to think about. We don't avoid the topics though. We've been talking about money and moving non-stop for the last few weeks but we never seem to fight about it.
We'd suck as that sickly sweet couple everyone secretly hates if we fought. Maybe that's the real reason. However, I do foresee fighting when I'm stressing trying to understand Spanish all the time. Oh Rosetta Stone, you are fast but are you fast enough? Well I can say newspaper and apparently a word for drinking that V says is never used in Latin American Spanish. Awesome. I'm going to be the uber proper speaker that everyone knows isn't a native. You know if my white ass skin doesn't rat me out first. The guy at this little taco joint in Somerville was incredulous when I ordered tacos de lengua...He was like okay white girl, you do not want tongue tacos. And I was like yeah I so do. We went back and forth which was awesome...and then we found out we had NO Cash and the silly white girl had to go find an ATM. Long story short I got my tacos and they were excellent - although never as good as the Cuban ones in Florida. Oh how I miss you taco stand in the parking lot of a grocery store.
Well admissions do suggest that applicants see a therapist, if for nothing but getting a feel for the process. Plus you basically gotta have one if you work professionally. Personally I support that anyway. If one is going to school to become a therapist hopefully one supports the idea and believes it useful. I want to be this happy for the next five. Then maybe we'll talk adoption or fostering. Maybe it is because I don't hear my biological clock ticking or maybe because I have become quite an eco person lately but I'm not sure bringing a child into the world is for me. But then again I'm 24 and have no intention of having kids for a while anyway lol. Works for some but not me. Should I see the same therapist as someone I know? That's sorta weird. I mean I get like a PCP but a therapist, I mean really? Minds are way more personal than bodies. I'd see the same Gyno as someone with no issues but a shrink weirds me out.
Why did this radio on TV channel just play two System of a Down songs in a row? Is it fate? Sherry would suggest that surely. But I'm still not a believer. It is luck and coincidence. Nothing more. No guiding hand to the universe. Even if there was such a thing I guarantee making a random person feel nostalgia for an era long since ended would be the least of it's priorities. And a third, though not in a row.
She didn't guess. what a liar lol. Apparently ppl still read this lol. Ah well I would have liked to tell her personally and not have her find it out from someone else. But it's not like anyone knew that but V and me.
I just got a Kitchen Aid mixer as an engagement present. Psyched!... maybe I will be hiring a moving van. Now how to tell people that it's going to be a looong engagement?
I'm still trying to figure out a way to break it gently to my dad. He is gonna be furious. He'll probably act more upset about us moving than about me being gay. Strange man that he is. I have been voluntarily playing cards with my parents recently. Maybe I will miss them more than I am thinking I will. There will be visiting I'm sure.
I should sleep. Lacey's opening night is tonight and I gotta get up at like 5:00pm.. In like 4 hours. Wonderful.